Here are Birgit's final two reports from recent guidance:
Today I felt very supported in the selfless space. I called the ego and got light pressure on my head. Not quite as helmet-like as before, but rather individual pressure points. I felt into it, but there is nothing behind it. These points dissolve when I feel them. And then I had a tingling and buzzing in and around my whole body, as if I was dissolving. As if the body was dissolving.
When I think about the "I", I think about my body and my appearance at the same time. But this is not the "I" because this is somehow changeable.
I think the "I" exists only as a thought. But what is it that reacts flattered or happy or angry?"
And the final one:
yesterday it was very quiet inside me, I felt carried, and the noise which usually prevails in my head was no longer there. The volume control was probably turned to "quiet". And I had the subtle knowledge that I had unmasked it:
There's noone there inside of me. There is no "I". There is no "control center" in me from which everything emanates. It is empty within me.
When I called the 'I' this time, it sounded different in my inner space. No longer meaningful, rather meaningless. It had no effect on my feelings, because I knew that there was nothing there.
A slight, barely perceptible head pressure, perhaps but even that had no meaning. I never lost the selfless room.
I felt very calm and carried all day long. And practiced experiencing myself in the selfless space.
Even today everything feels very light. Unconcerned I watch the newsfeed on FB which usually takes me quite emotionally. It all feels very expanded inside of me. And like I said, I feel rather emotionally uninvolved in terms of the outer life.
I feel comfortable. The big issue which has been on my mind and emotions for over a year has retreated into the background. I feel freer and can enjoy life much more.
The tightness in my body is no longer there and in my head it is perhaps still minimal. But that has no relevance either.
Thoughts and feelings just come. They arise as naturally as my heartbeat or breathing or the functions of my organs. They also leave again when I let them.
Many greetings and a happy Sunday,